January 2014

Got an odd email just now

- by admin

From someone I haven't talked to in a long time.

Someone who used to be a big part of my life and influenced me in many ways.

Looking back I can safely say these experiences (in the long run) taught me the kind of person I'd rather not be

fixated on money
close-minded
shallow
the list goes on

and we had a huge falling out a few years ago due to a sketchy and poorly handled situation.

I blew up.

I told them how I felt and left it at that. In the years since I haven't thought much about them

and when I do, it's through the grapevine and usually a story so ridiculous that I sigh, roll my eyes and think

thank god I don't talk to them anymore!

But I've been sitting here for the past hour or so staring at my screen

typing, typing, retyping

trying to figure out how to say what I want to say without sounding

callous
cold
and downright mean

because in the end, as it turns out

letting go is harder than I thought.
 

Happy 2014 darlings

- by admin

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2013 was a big year for yr girl and I spent NYE celebrating it in the best was possible -surrounded by amazing, lovely people. I drank too much sparkling wine, ate too many nachos, killed my feet dancing to great music, and managed to drag my tired self into the office today because (gasp) I missed being here while I was away on vacation.

Which was the biggest surprise of all.

Considering that I was unemployed for a good chunk of 2013, and the stress of getting a job that was only part-time, finding a new job, getting laid off from that job less than a month after starting with no explanation as to why and feeling so utterly hopeless -probably more so than I've ever felt- being able to roll into my work every day and spend my workday with really great people doing challenging and interesting things feels like such a stroke of luck that sometimes I wonder how I finagled my way to where I am.

Reading everyone else's posts it seems like 2013 was a bit tough for all of us.

Character building, if you will.

It's funny how a different number at the end of the calendar year gives us hope for something better. A chance to improve & get better.

We're kinda weird about time like that.

Either way, things are looking up for 2014 and I'm excited to get this party started.

Thanks, as always, for reading and hanging out on the internet with me. Happy 2014 to you!

xox yr girl Shaner
 

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